A True Revolution

So yea see, I have this burning desire to know everything I guess. I just want to know so much about the world around me; I want to understand these bizarre thoughts and ideas I've always had. I've scoured wikipedia for days at a time, and I've read good deal from most of the holy books. Most recently I've been deep in the digital scrolls of Gnostic philosophy and some other stuff I guess you could call metaphysics. But it doesn't matter what I read, because whether psychology or philosophy or quantum physics, it all leads back to revolution. But what I see as a true revolution is different from most in history.

A true revolution transcends all levels. It's not just about overturning corrupt laws or governments; it goes beyond that. It must help people to understand what true human values are, help them to understand life, their life and allow them the freedom to find out their own answers and truths. That is the concept behind a Meta-Revolution. A revolution of one, a revolution on the inside as well as out. It's about breaking out of all imposed boundaries and being completely free to choose from the vast options in this world.

True freedom is the ability to choose your own destiny and be able to make that destiny a reality. It doesn't matter if society is really turning deeply tyrannical or not, because any thing, system, or even self-imposed limitation that prevents you from pursuing what makes you feel alive is the enemy. Revolutions are always about freeing the people from corrupt governments, but true freedom allows for people to live under such government as long as they choose to. Why they would though, I couldn't guess.

But we're all individuals, we all have to discover what's right for ourselves. Even if it means conforming with everyone else. It's self-determination at it's finest. The problem is that higher powers than most of us, for whatever reason, don't want that. The current state of society is that you work within society, within their rules and regulation that for the most part, you have no say in. We all know that going through the "proper" channels is an exercise in futility at best.

I believe that more and more people are beginning to feel this way, and that it is a belief worth fighting and potentially dieing for. Because as high and transcendental such a revolution sounds make no mistake. This is war.

I believe that is a true revolution.

-Rage, June 3 2009 C.E.

Fighting for a Chance

The Kill - 30 Seconds To Mars

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now: this is who I really am inside
I Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, THIS IS WHO I REALLY AM
-30 Seconds to Mars, The Kill

These days I find myself questioning everything that I do; why am I resisting so hard? Whats so bad about just going it the regular way, the, for all intents and purposes, right way. Chasing dreams is tearing apart my family, but going their way is tearing apart me. I guess that's the real reason, everything else just feels so wrong, like I'm wasting the wasting my time in this world instead of doing what I feel I was put here for. I want to feel alive, feel like I'm making a difference, feel like i'm changing this world for better.

I see all kinds of evils in this world; greed, lust for power, hunger, intolerance...I don't want to be someone who can recognize all this but is unwilling to do what is necessary to change it. But I love my mother, and she wants me to be a good man, to take my medicine and put my private school education to good use so I can provide for myself within this society. Great, except that this current social construct, the one where your value is determined by who stands above you and who you stand on, and where you are told exactly what an hour of you life is worth based what those higher within the hierarchy feel it should be worth, is one which I am totally incompatible with. And to pretend that I can be who I want to be and learn to love living within such a society is a fantasy.

The Fantasy.

So now I find myself fighting for a chance to experience a life outside of these pre-set rules and conditions. I already decided my course, I've chosen my destiny and now it's time to see where this journey will take me, down every dark alley, every war-torn territory and maybe across the stars themselves even...because that is what calls to me, and ignoring it makes me feel empty inside. But I don't want to leave my family forever, even though it seems that breaking away completely is the only option. There has to be a way to do both, to explore this world and seek new adventures without killing a very big part of what matters the most to me in life.

I guess I'm fighting for that chance, too.


-Rage, May 31 2009 C.E.

Visions: Global Warming/Radiation

This just popped into my mind one day in environmental science class. We were talking about solar radiation, and I was fascinated by the fact that is was damn cold outside but the sun was burning my face without heating up the air through pure solar energy radiation. Then, all of a sudden I saw this image flash in my mind so I sketched it down in my notebook. I finally got around to making this in Illustrator. The idea is to do a bunch of similar stuff and make them into stickers maybe.

Personal Logue: Current Situation

Man I haven't updated this thing in forever. Really it was just finals and I stopped doing everything-writing, drawing and even training to really try and save my grades and shit. Like that would work lol. Actually I written and drawn alot of stuff, I always get the most inspiration when i'm stressed out and under pressure. None if it's ready to be published though.

But it's the summer time it's time to get busy. I got some big things dropping soon. I'll leave you with some music. Rage out.

The Mission - 30 Seconds To Mars

Personal Log: Is Anyone Out There?

I'm staring at my computer screen, but I don't really see it.
It's 3:26 AM. A lab packet lay discarded on my bed, i'm not sure
when I stopped working on it.
I should be sleeping. I should be doing homework. I'm not.
It's like I'm in a trance...my thoughts are muddy. Murky.
In my hand is a bottle of pills, nuclear orange and covered in warnings.

Murderer, robber, psychomatic schizophrenic

And here I am, in my room, eyes glazed, with amphetamines running through my
bloodstream.
What was I just doing? I can't seem to remember, and I can't seem to care either.
I push play. I've been listening to the same 4 songs for the past 5 hours. I can't stop.

Murderer, murderer, murderer, murderer,
Murderer, robber, psychomatic schizophrenic

I'm hypnotized, because all day I hear about mass homicides and school shootings,
rape and wars and gun show loopholes. Riots, cancer, suicide...
And pills; everywhere more and more pills.
I need to get out of here. My sanity is long gone, but my mind is starting to
follow.

Murderer, murdererThis is pointless murderer, murderer
Murderer, murdererI need to sleep murderer, murderer
Murderer, murdererWhat the fuck is wrong with me? murderer, murderer

God, tell me, I need to know

Murderer, robber psychomatic schizophrenic

Is anybody out there?

Buck-buck-buckin 'em down blow a niggas head off
-Rage, April 19 2009 C.E. (lyrics - Murderers & Robbers - Project Pat)

The Struggle

Read, assimilate, integrate, act.

The Struggle - 30 Seconds To Mars

A military force established by deception of sense
That you deceive enemies
So that they do not know your real condition,
And that they can establish supremacy.
It is mobilized by a game in a sense that
It goes into action when it sees an advantage,
Dividing and recombining is done to confuse opponents
And observe how they react to you so that they can adapt
And situate and seize victory.
Therefore, when it moves swiftly it is like the ramp,
When it goes slowly it is like the force.
It is rapacious as fire and immovable as mountains,
And as swift as the wind in that it goes without a trace and
Withdraws like lightning and it is like a force in that its whirling
And is rapacious as fire across a plain,
Not leaving a single blade of grass.
But as immovable as a mountain, and it is dark all around.
It is hard to know as the dark ends up killing thunder.
To ponder a locality to line up your troupes to expand
Your territory divide the spoils.
The rule for military operations is to feed of the enemy as much as possible,
However, the localities where people do no have very much
It is necessary to divide up the troupes into smaller groups
To take what they need here and there.
Then and there, that will be enough

Welcome to the Universe

Status Report: 5 Articles About Major Events

There's been a lot of crazy stuff on the news lately some of it's the same old, but some stuff, such as North Korea launching test missiles or the string of mass homicides takes it to another level. So here's 5 articles that I feel show the insanity of what's happening right now. These articles are all from either Newsweek, MSNBC, or the Washington Post.

Economy Linked to Spate of Mass Killings

Now this is straight up unreal. In the past month there has been 57 U.S. deaths due to mass homicides; 13 of these deaths (3 separate mass homicides) happened within a 48 hour time-frame. These homicides have taken place from citizenship centers to nursing homes to even a church retreat. The only reason anyone can even guess why this is happening is the economy, as many of the killers had either been laid-off or evicted. Scary.

Japan Is Outraged Over North Korea Missile

Here we go. N.K. gearing up for nuclear capabilities, with Russia and China backing them as allies. N.K. wants to be a nuclear power, and of course the U.S., Japan, and any of our other allies aint trying to hear that. N.K. tested their missile systems by launching one over Tokyo. Even though the missile did no damage, with the situation what it is there's always a possibility that this could provoke war should things spiral out of control. Damn.

Cyber Spies Penetrate U.S. Electrical Grid

Homeland Security has discovered that spies from Russia, China, and other countries have penetrated the U.S. electrical system and it's controls. The article states that the spies left behind programs that could be used to shut-down our systems should we go to war. However, the article says very little about what is being done to fix this situation. Fuck.

Mexico's Drug Violence Spills Over the Border

The cartels in Mexico have pretty much taken over the country. Americans are advised not go to Mexico because of the many tourists that were abducted or disappeared last month. Now apparently, what many feared would happen is: the violence is starting to spill over in the U. S. of A. Mexican drug cartels control about 90% of the cocaine trade in the US. Make sure to check out the Border War photos on this one.

Deadly gunbattle erupts as Thai protests spread

There's been alot of riots lately. Greece, Germany, Moldova, hell, even in the U.K. The latest one that's broken out is in Thailand. Protesters swarmed a summit of 16 leaders of Asian nations, causing the summit to be canceled and a State of Emergency to be issued. Now the violence has escalated, with automatic gunfire and tear gas being used to disable protesters. There's been a whole bunch of running battles with rioters throwing molotov cocktails at soldiers, which has caused thing to spiral out of control.

I think it's only a matter of time before a riot breaks out over here; with the economy being what it is and people losing their homes all over the place. The police and the government know this, that's why there's been such an increase in police forces. Anyway...

This is only a few articles, but there are many more crazy events across the world (the earthquake in Italy and the Somalian pirates for example). Things are bad, and we all know they're going to get much worse before they get better. But maybe things need to get worse, so that people can see that massive change is needed, that the old paradigm cannot continue if we want this turmoil to end.

And there's never been a better time in history for change.