Personal Log: Is Anyone Out There?

I'm staring at my computer screen, but I don't really see it.
It's 3:26 AM. A lab packet lay discarded on my bed, i'm not sure
when I stopped working on it.
I should be sleeping. I should be doing homework. I'm not.
It's like I'm in a trance...my thoughts are muddy. Murky.
In my hand is a bottle of pills, nuclear orange and covered in warnings.

Murderer, robber, psychomatic schizophrenic

And here I am, in my room, eyes glazed, with amphetamines running through my
bloodstream.
What was I just doing? I can't seem to remember, and I can't seem to care either.
I push play. I've been listening to the same 4 songs for the past 5 hours. I can't stop.

Murderer, murderer, murderer, murderer,
Murderer, robber, psychomatic schizophrenic

I'm hypnotized, because all day I hear about mass homicides and school shootings,
rape and wars and gun show loopholes. Riots, cancer, suicide...
And pills; everywhere more and more pills.
I need to get out of here. My sanity is long gone, but my mind is starting to
follow.

Murderer, murdererThis is pointless murderer, murderer
Murderer, murdererI need to sleep murderer, murderer
Murderer, murdererWhat the fuck is wrong with me? murderer, murderer

God, tell me, I need to know

Murderer, robber psychomatic schizophrenic

Is anybody out there?

Buck-buck-buckin 'em down blow a niggas head off
-Rage, April 19 2009 C.E. (lyrics - Murderers & Robbers - Project Pat)

The Struggle

Read, assimilate, integrate, act.

The Struggle - 30 Seconds To Mars

A military force established by deception of sense
That you deceive enemies
So that they do not know your real condition,
And that they can establish supremacy.
It is mobilized by a game in a sense that
It goes into action when it sees an advantage,
Dividing and recombining is done to confuse opponents
And observe how they react to you so that they can adapt
And situate and seize victory.
Therefore, when it moves swiftly it is like the ramp,
When it goes slowly it is like the force.
It is rapacious as fire and immovable as mountains,
And as swift as the wind in that it goes without a trace and
Withdraws like lightning and it is like a force in that its whirling
And is rapacious as fire across a plain,
Not leaving a single blade of grass.
But as immovable as a mountain, and it is dark all around.
It is hard to know as the dark ends up killing thunder.
To ponder a locality to line up your troupes to expand
Your territory divide the spoils.
The rule for military operations is to feed of the enemy as much as possible,
However, the localities where people do no have very much
It is necessary to divide up the troupes into smaller groups
To take what they need here and there.
Then and there, that will be enough

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Status Report: 5 Articles About Major Events

There's been a lot of crazy stuff on the news lately some of it's the same old, but some stuff, such as North Korea launching test missiles or the string of mass homicides takes it to another level. So here's 5 articles that I feel show the insanity of what's happening right now. These articles are all from either Newsweek, MSNBC, or the Washington Post.

Economy Linked to Spate of Mass Killings

Now this is straight up unreal. In the past month there has been 57 U.S. deaths due to mass homicides; 13 of these deaths (3 separate mass homicides) happened within a 48 hour time-frame. These homicides have taken place from citizenship centers to nursing homes to even a church retreat. The only reason anyone can even guess why this is happening is the economy, as many of the killers had either been laid-off or evicted. Scary.

Japan Is Outraged Over North Korea Missile

Here we go. N.K. gearing up for nuclear capabilities, with Russia and China backing them as allies. N.K. wants to be a nuclear power, and of course the U.S., Japan, and any of our other allies aint trying to hear that. N.K. tested their missile systems by launching one over Tokyo. Even though the missile did no damage, with the situation what it is there's always a possibility that this could provoke war should things spiral out of control. Damn.

Cyber Spies Penetrate U.S. Electrical Grid

Homeland Security has discovered that spies from Russia, China, and other countries have penetrated the U.S. electrical system and it's controls. The article states that the spies left behind programs that could be used to shut-down our systems should we go to war. However, the article says very little about what is being done to fix this situation. Fuck.

Mexico's Drug Violence Spills Over the Border

The cartels in Mexico have pretty much taken over the country. Americans are advised not go to Mexico because of the many tourists that were abducted or disappeared last month. Now apparently, what many feared would happen is: the violence is starting to spill over in the U. S. of A. Mexican drug cartels control about 90% of the cocaine trade in the US. Make sure to check out the Border War photos on this one.

Deadly gunbattle erupts as Thai protests spread

There's been alot of riots lately. Greece, Germany, Moldova, hell, even in the U.K. The latest one that's broken out is in Thailand. Protesters swarmed a summit of 16 leaders of Asian nations, causing the summit to be canceled and a State of Emergency to be issued. Now the violence has escalated, with automatic gunfire and tear gas being used to disable protesters. There's been a whole bunch of running battles with rioters throwing molotov cocktails at soldiers, which has caused thing to spiral out of control.

I think it's only a matter of time before a riot breaks out over here; with the economy being what it is and people losing their homes all over the place. The police and the government know this, that's why there's been such an increase in police forces. Anyway...

This is only a few articles, but there are many more crazy events across the world (the earthquake in Italy and the Somalian pirates for example). Things are bad, and we all know they're going to get much worse before they get better. But maybe things need to get worse, so that people can see that massive change is needed, that the old paradigm cannot continue if we want this turmoil to end.

And there's never been a better time in history for change.